Just last September, when the financer still handed his whole income and manage the budget, i had this guts to visit his statement and make a sneak about how he handled his resources. That is the moment i realize that he was making an over withdrawals that month. When i confronted Mr. Finance Manager about it, he simply imply that all the resources usage was all about the family’s credits and he spend nothing on his personal gains.

Well as for me, i really don’t mind about if he spends his resources on his personal aims due to the reasons that: 1. It is his money and 2. indeed the money he is handling is his’. My only point was i just needed to be treated as partner and not just a wife. From the beginning of this virtue of mine, i never ever insist any authority over handling his resources. From the start he was the one doing the budgeting tasks, and other bills payments. Imagining that my only task in this virtue is to 1. cook, 2. laundry, 3. house cleaning 4. other house chores, 5. other extra services. No money management involved.

I consider myself as a very patient person when it comes to family. I always wanted a harmony in my relationship. To see to it that I should be treated more than I am having and should be given what I deserve for being an abiding worker in his small world.

As I was started earlier, this last September, I had a simple conclusion on his expenditures and more unexpected withdrawals and I did a little accounting about it when i found out some of the amounts are inconsistent and there are a little discrepancies and unlocated expenses.

After some discussions and arguments over the facts that i found out about, and some of illustrations i made as a visualizations of what just happened in his resources that month, we argue and argue. I really hate arguing about money but having the reasons I acquired from all the data that i made, im certain that my reasons are valid.

WOW! Imagine that he finally handed me over that Finance/Budget management Task. I am now taking care of his whole income. Congratulations Mrs. Worker now that I am handling now his Automated Tellering Machine Card.

I was promoted from being a plain and simple worker to a
Budget Manager of my Finance Officer.

Now I feel the full pleasure of being his partner and not just his wife. For 3-4 years, it is only now that i can tell to myself that I am his partner and his wife.

This past nights, i always happen to wake up from a bad dreams. Dreams that i am always gone crazy to think about during my conscious moments. I was thinking if it is my instincts that lead me to dreamed about those things or it was just a dream that i shouldn’t been thinking about yet i can’t help to think why? Why my dreams are always about those things? It happens over and over each night in the past days. And it keeps me awake all time early in the mornight. I’m beginning to worry that it might happen one of this days. I know it will. Wrong. Only God knows what will happen tomorrow. I better clear my worries for i know God has His reasons…